Trusting God While Grieving Is Hard

Grief has no schedule. In the day, I keep myself busy by filling the LOUD SILENCE with tasks, working, or even a smile that looks strong on the outside. But when the night falls, it’s different. That’s when the SADNESS creeps in STRONGER, when the questions are louder, and when my heart feels the most fragile.

At night, I’m sad. I’m angry. I’m confused.

I replay memories, I wrestle with “why,” and I wonder if trusting God should feel easier than this. I’m learning the scriptures by educating myself and being intentional with the WORD. I know He is good. I know He promises to never leave me nor forsake me. And yet, in the darkness of grief, it doesn’t always feel that way.

I used to think TRUST meant I had to be steady, smiling, and strong all the time. But this grief in particular is teaching me daily something different. One hundred and nineteen days later to be exact that, TRUST sometimes looks like crying myself to sleep and still praying, “God, help me make it through tomorrow.” TRUST sometimes looks like anger and questions, yet still turning my face toward Him instead of away.

I’m learning that God doesn’t expect me to pretend. He isn’t looking for a perfect performance of faith. He wants my raw, messy heart! The sadness, the anger, the confusion. And in return, He gives me His presence.

The truth is, He meets me right here in the night. Not with all the answers I want, but with the comfort I need. The comfort of knowing I am seen, I am loved, and I am not carrying this grief alone. Literally when I get in or be in my funks, I get a random message from a FRIEND reassuring me! EVERY SINGLE TIME! God you are AMAZING!

So tonight, if you’re grieving too, let’s be honest together! Trusting God doesn’t erase the pain. But it does mean we don’t have to carry it without Him. And even in the hardest nights, that’s enough to hold onto.

“Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.” – Psalm 30:5

The beauty of God is that He doesn’t demand we hide our emotions or pretend the pain isn’t real. He welcomes the sadness, the anger, and the confusion. He sits with us in the silence. He gathers every tear. And while He doesn’t always give us the answers we’re desperate for, He gives us Himself.

So if you’re grieving and struggling to trust, please hear me, you are not failing. You are human. And God can handle your questions, your tears, and even your anger.

Trusting Him while grieving is hard, but it’s not impossible. One breath, one prayer, one night at a time, He proves that He is still faithful.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” – Psalm 34:18