How God Is Holding Me Through My Grief 🙌🏾

There are times in life when everything feels too heavy to carry. For me, that time came when my daughter, Jahmya, passed away. It has been 2 weeks and 4 days since her transition, and today marks one week since I said my final “see you later.” The pain is still fresh, and the ache in my heart is real. I didn’t know how I was going to keep going, but God didn’t let me fall apart. He held me together, and He is still holding me today.

Going to church has helped me so much. It’s where I feel refreshed, where I can cry, pray, and feel God’s love all over again. I thank God for His grace and mercy. He didn’t let me fold under the pain. Instead, He gave me strength, helped my faith grow, and gave me wisdom to keep walking with Him.

One scripture that speaks to my heart is 2 Corinthians 12:9-10. It says:

“My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness… for when I am weak, then am I strong.”

These words remind me that even when I feel weak, God is still strong. When Paul wrote this, he was going through something painful too. He asked God to take it away, but God didn’t. Instead, God told him that His grace was enough, and His strength would show up best when Paul felt weak.

That’s how I feel. God didn’t take the pain away, but He is helping me walk through it. He is fixing my heart, piece by piece. He is teaching me to trust Him even when it hurts. He is helping me keep going, not by my own strength, but by His.

Another verse that comforts me is Psalm 30:5, which says:

“Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.”

Some days are really hard, and I miss Jahmya more than words can say. But even in those moments, I know God is near. He is reminding me that joy will come again. It might not look the same, but it will come.

If you are going through grief too, please know that God is able to hold you just like He’s holding me. His grace is enough, and His love never fails. Even when it hurts, God is still good, and He is still with us.

I am forever grateful.